...3 days ago, he told her: I attempted sexual liaison (twice) despite your clear reluctance
Booked for rape on Friday, Tarun Tejpal has denied accusations of sexual assault but at least in one email to his colleague and alleged victim, he clearly admits to an attempt at a "sexual liaison" against her wishes.
In that email, sent on November 19, a day after his colleague complained to managing editor Shoma Chaudhury that she was sexually assaulted, Tejpal writes: "It wrenches me beyond describing, therefore, to accept that I have violated that long-standing relationship of trust and respect between us and I apologize unconditionally for the shameful lapse of judgement that led me to attempt a sexual liaison with you on two occasions on 7 November and 8 November 2013, despite your clear reluctance that you did not want such attention from me."
Asked to explain this email, Tejpal told The Indian Express tonight: "These initial internal letters were demanded and done by Shoma as she insisted on closing a contentious issue through the sought apology. My version from first moment was totally different — and Shoma has admitted as much today."
Chaudhury did not respond to a text sent by The Indian Express.
However, the victim, sources said, sent back a strong rebuttal on November 21, saying that Tejpal was fudging facts. It wasn't an attempt at "sexual liaison," she said, the fact was that "he sexually molested me, on two separate occasions and that he violated my bodily integrity and trust."
Sources have told The Indian Express that this email raises questions about the veracity of claims made by Chaudhury during the day today about varying versions of the "incident" in Goa. They said that the victim had asked for a public apology from Tejpal acknowledging "sexual misconduct" but he had called it an "unfortunate incident".
In the November 19 email, however, he claims to hold himself accountable: "There are many, many reasons, therefore, why I am smothered with regret. But I want you to know that foremost among them is the fact that I have hurt you and broken your trust in me, and that of many others around me. I have often spoken for the absolute rights and freedoms of women, and it shames me beyond words, to find myself located in this awful context. I would say it was a moment of insanity, except that would mean evading responsibility for it, and that I will not do. I hold myself, first and last, accountable."