Bee For and After

Now it all makes sense. Because I was a girl, never a boy. Never a boy," says the woman on screen, who introduces herself as "Bee, by the way, formerly known as Charlie." As a child, Charlie never questioned why he liked playing with girls and Barbie dolls, even though he was teased for it. However as he grew up, he realised that it was more than just enjoying the company of girls. He wanted to be a girl. He had always felt like a girl trapped in a boy's body. It's Charlie's journey to finding his true identity as Bee, that Laila Khan's film Before I Was Me explores.

"The film is a portrayal of a transgender person. The story follows Charlie's (aka Bee's) days as a child, and questions why as an adult, he makes the choices he does about his sexuality," says Khan. She brings her film to India for the first time for multiple screenings in Pune and Mumbai this month. While the 15-minute film is a work of fiction, it delivers a message about gender dysphoria a condition where a person feels a disconnect between his/her biological sex and his/her gender identity through an honest conversation with Charlie. In the film, he recalls how no one really understood him, when he was teased in school and the day his father abandoned the family.

"I wanted to send out a simple message through my film, not to judge others," says UK-bred Khan. The film also explores some of the possible factors of GID (Gender Identity Disorder) such as the absence of a male figure in Charlie's life and female tendencies as a child. "The exact cause of gender dysphoria is unknown and there's a lot of controversy surrounding it. Some say it's a biological or a medical problem that is corrected through surgery, and others say it's psychological," says Khan. Charlie feels very differently. "A lot of people would say that it was just a state of mind. But it was more than that. It was all there, in my body. For me, it was a matter of life and death," he says in the film.

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