Even if it's a mistake, it's my mistake: Rihanna on Chris Brown
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Rihanna says she decided to reconcile with ex-boyfriend Chris Brown because she could not alter the way she felt about him despite his assault on her in 2009.
Brown, 23, was arrested for assaulting Rihanna on the way home from a pre-Grammys party in Los Angeles in February 2009 and Rihanna's decision to take him back shocked many.
The singer says she is ready to run the risk, the Rolling Stone magazine reported.
"..I decided it was more important for me to be happy, and I wasn't going to let anybody's opinion get in the way of that. Even if it's a mistake, it's my mistake. After being tormented for so many years, being angry and dark, I'd rather just live my truth and take the backlash. I can handle it," Rihanna said.
The 24-year-old star insists their relationship is "different now" compared to when they originally dated in 2007-2009 but says she wanted to punish him before getting back together.
"I wanted him to know what it felt like to lose me. To feel the consequences of that. So when that (stuff) came back it hit me like a ton of bricks. Like, God, you've got to be kidding right now. But I got real with myself, and I just couldn't bury the way I felt.
"When you add up the pieces from the outside, it's not the cutest puzzle in the world. You see us walking somewhere, driving somewhere, in the studio, in the club, and you think you know. But it's different now. We don't have those types of arguments anymore... We value each other. We know exactly what we have now, and we don't want to lose that."
The 'Umbrella' hitmaker says her boyfriend now knows that he cannot mess up things again.
"... That's just not an option. I can't say that nothing else will ever go wrong. But I'm pretty solid in the knowing that he's disgusted by that. And I wouldn't have gone this far if I ever thought that was a possibility."